"Yes, yes I know they’ll get it all wrong without me." *tear*

Of course I was sad!  I absolutely adored Capaldi as The Doctor.  We all knew it was coming but it still was a tad sad. 

It wasn't a mind blowing episode but it was from...for...the heart(s).   It was good.  It was a good send off for both 1 and 12.  Yes, you read that right.  And if you haven't seen the Christmas Episode yet, I suggest watching it before reading on. 

We begin at the end...or end at the beginning...this time travel stuff is all wibbly wobbly.  It picks up right where the season finale left off. 

I did enjoy how they pulled in One to show how different he is but still the same.  After thousands of years he is a swashbuckling savior of the universe.  Something I don't think the 1st Doctor ever thought he would be.  Back then he was just a traveler.  A traveler who observed, taught, and learned along the way.  Sometimes he helped but nothing like we know the Doctor to be. 

I just loved how short he was with 12.  He has no time for your nonsense.  Bradley did a great job of resurrecting the 1st Doctor...the one who started it all.  He definitely did him an honor. 

Things I Loved:

- Bradley as the 1st Doctor
- Gatiss is in it
- 12 being 12
- We got Bill back!
- 12 and 1 bickering
- Bill keeping 12 in line
- Traveling in the old T.A.R.D.I.S.
- A big baddie who isn't a baddie at all
- Lessons learned - Doctor we need you
- The original scenes from Classic Who with the 1st Doctor

Things I didn't like (at first):

- Bill isn't really Bill
- Why is there a random Captain (Gatiss), what is his point?
- Peter is leaving (duh!)
- Nothing overly crazy is happening
- What is with the glass people?!?!?

Things that made me cry:

- "We can be anyone you want" HOLY $HIT ITS CLARA! *yep now I'm crying*
- "Check in on my family" - "Of course, what's the name?" - Captain Archibald Hamish Lethbridge-Stewart *WHAT??!!?!?!* 
- Them landing on the day of the WWI Christmas Armistice.  
- Bill saying "its like you are looking right through me...just see me" or whatever she says
- Capaldi's final "speech" just all of it.
- The first Doctor realizing he doesn't just go on living. He becomes a legend, a hero, a friend.  He is The Doctor of War but not because he is violent, because he stops the violence.

The last 10 f**king minutes I was crying.  Not sobbing, just eyes leaking because it was so moving, at least for me.  

This...just this entire moment did it for me (and of course seeing Jodie at the end)

"Oh, there it is. Silly old universe. The more I save it the more it needs saving. It’s a treadmill.

*T.A.R.D.I.S. noise*

Yes, yes I know they’ll get it all wrong without me.

*T.A.R.D.I.S. noise*

Well, I suppose….one more lifetime won’t kill anyone. Well, except me.

*Stirring music/T.A.R.D.I.S. noises*

You wait a moment, Doctor. Let’s get it right. I’ve got a few things to say to you. Basic stuff first.

Never be cruel, never be cowardly. And never ever eat pears! Remember – hate is always foolish…and love, is always wise.

Always try, to be nice and never fail to be kind. Oh, and….and you mustn’t tell anyone your name. No-one would understand it anyway. Except….

*gasps, falls to the floor*

Except….children. Children can hear it. Sometimes – if their hearts are in the right place, and the stars are too. Children can hear your name.

*Gasps, grunts more*

But nobody else. Nobody else. Ever.

*Pulls himself off the floor*

Laugh hard. Run fast. Be kind.

*Stirring music.*

Doctor – I let you go."

*crying alone on the couch* *still smiling* 

There she is...wait she just fell out the T.A.R.D.I.S....CRAP!

(that "Speech" was pulled from RadioTimes...I can't find the page again though....)

Why do we only get one season of this banter?!?!

Okay so I am sad that The Doctor is regenerating this season.  I LOVE Capaldi as The Doctor.  I know there has been a lot of criticisim but I truthfully think people are being excessively hard on the show, the actors, and the writers.  Just freaking enjoy what we have people!

And really if you stop and look he is fantastic!  I'm always leery of new companions but I like to give them a shot.  I don't think there really has been one I hated or disliked.  They are all great in their own way.  Moving on, I think my favorite part of Capaldi as The Doctor is they are staying away from the whole in love with the doctor thing.  Not that he isn't attractive but 9/10/11 was a love story...or multiple love stories and while I adored them, it took away from the fun that is Doctor Who.  He is an alien who travels in time and space.  Of course he has feelings but lets go on an adventure and forget about the sexual tension for a bit. 

So we got to meet Bill in the season premier.  And I like her quite a bit.  She is funny and smart and cute and I dunno she's fun! She had some great one liners and her repertoire with 12 seems like the beginning of a BEAUTIFUL friendship.    I feel like we are going to be cut short with him regenerating...I hope she sticks around.

My only concern is the feels.  My feeeeeeeels during the season premier were off the charts...if this is going to happen the whole season I am going to be an emotional mess!  

Why you may ask?  Well for one he is HIDING on Earth as a professor (nice).  His office has pictures of RIVER and SUSAN on his desk...what?!?!  Knife to the heart!  Then Bill doesn't know much of her mother and she tells the Doctor.  Miraculously she goes home and a long lost box of pictures appears.  He went back in time and took pictures of her Mum and left them for her!!!!!!!  They go on an adventure, yay!  And Bill get to experience like everything in on e episode.  Travel across the Earth, travel in time, travel in space, see a Dalek.  Then...then!!!! Then we get to the end and he doesn't want to travel.  He wants to wipe her memories and make her forget it all.  Then she fights back and says something like "how would you feel if someone did the to you" and f**king Clara's theme starts playing.  SERIOUSLY!?!?!!?!?  Then he says fine, go and she runs.  Then looks at the pic of Susan and says shut up, then at River and says shut up, then the T.A.R.D.I.S. chimes in and its hilarious to me. 

So he asks her to travel with him and I am so excited!  But if this many feels were had in Episode 1...I may need to Wine it up for the rest of the season!!!!

“It was beautiful. And it was sad.” Oh, and I am Hell Bent on rewatching that...mainly because my DVR cut off (jerk).

"What is happening?!??!"  My mantra for the entire Season Finale (season/series 9) of Doctor Who.  I'm saying it now...

If you read on it will be SPOILED.

Maybe I missed something in the weeks leading up to the finale but when the opening credits rolled and I saw "Jenna Coleman"  I was like wait... but blew it off as she would be his conscience once again while he dealt with the jerk-ish Time Lords. 

I was so wrong but that isn't the point...who am I kidding yes it is.  The opening scene is him talking to Clara in a f**king diner...THE diner he was in with Amy & Rory in Nevada (is this significant or just the network reusing sets???).  And he is telling her a story about CLARA. Me: OMG what happened to Clara...how is she alive...why doesn't she know the doctor?!!?!? Then he plays a song on his guitar.  Clara: What's it called?  Him:  I think its called Clara.  *ouch my heart* Then we are back on Gallifrey.  I won't lie...I geeked out the entire time Gallifrey was shown.  I mean we got his home planet and their stupid fancy dress...it was AWESOME! 

How cool

is

this!?!?!?

I loved that The Doctor had so much confidence and control while on his home planet.  By all evidence he should have been scared but he wasn't because he knew.  He knew he did right.  And he knew his people were a bunch of dicks.  He drew a line in the sand (literally).  He stood up to a firing squad.  He stood up to Rassilon!  He was so freaking amazing.  So question...was that woman his mum or just a care taker while he was at the academy?  Anyways, I laughed my butt off when he was told to drop any weapons and he dropped the flipping spoon *snort*.

So as usual the Time Lords act like a bunch of pompous @$$hats.  He gets rid of Rassilon and becomes President......I thought...I thought he didn't like being President.  Question: How the f**k did the Sisters of Karn find Gallifrey?!!?!!?  Anyway, so he uses his "knowledge" of the Hybrid as leverage for the Time Lords to bring back Clara.  So we get her back between her last heart beats.  He saved her!  This PISSED ME OFF.  Not because I want her to die (I adore her...she is one of my favorite companions) but because why can't anyone in Who stay dead! It cheapens the deaths when they happen because we all know Moffat doesn't like killing them and they can always come back.  There is no finality.  Moving on, so she's like in limbo...no heartbeat, no me gusta.

The Doctor goes all rogue time lord again and runs away, all to save Clara.  This is a VERY unhealthy relationship!!!  When she finds out how long he was in that disk...I broke a little.  I was the same way...why???  He said: "I had a duty of care", what?!?!?!?  That's about as close as we are going to get to an "I love you".  Not necessarily romantic.  But he does care immensely for his impossible girl.  (I'm not crying, you're crying)  He legit steals ANOTHER T.A.R.D.I.S. and runs away.  I freaked out all over again seeing the old school console room.  Be still my little geeky heart! I just hate that The Doctor is running...AGAIN.  That he is risking the destruction of TIME to have Clara back. Even 10 didn't destroy the universe to get Rose back...COME ON!  Maybe their "love" is stronger.............

Me is there at the end.  No literally at the end of the universe, it's Me and The Doctor and Clara of course.  And WTH was with the "its always four knocks".  That is not funny Mr. Moffat.  That was a HEARTBREAKING moment for the 10th Doctor (and for us!).  Anyways, The Doc (away from Clara) says the Hybrid is Me (Told you So), she says its him (no we are NOT going there.  He is not 1/2 human or whatever.  Just STOP).  Then she says it could be two people (what!?!?!!?!?).  So the Hybrid is the Doctor AND Clara...together.  OMG...OMG!  So to protect time, Gallifrey and Clara...he is going to wipe her memories.  Son of a!  No...we are not pulling a Donna Noble on Clara!!!!  Just.No! 

Clara heard it all and doesn't want to forget.  She is fine with dying but don't take away her memories of The Doctor.  As a fail safe she reverses the polarity to backfire if he tries to use the device on her.  But he doesn't believe her.  They do the whole speaking with their eyes thing with a little talking and decide its a 50/50 chance it'll work on her.  Suddenly the Doctor collapses.  What is happening?!?!?! No...OMG no...OMG!  Why do you hurt me like this!!?!?! The whole episode I thought it was Clara who forgot.  OMG! I did NOT see that coming!  So HE forgot HER...well mostly.  He remembers some things.  He knows she's important to him and he wants to find her.  F**k now I am legit crying.  But he can't find his T.A.R.D.I.S. *awwwww*

But why in the diner? What is Clara doing?  Where is Me???  So Clara walks away into the back...into the 2nd stolen T.A.R.D.I.S. where Me is waiting by the console and the diner disappears from around the Doctor.  He was in the freaking 2nd T.A.R.D.I.S. the whole time in the diner.  OMG (have I voiced my shock yet?)!  And then we see it.  In the aftermath of the other T.A.R.D.I.S. dematerializing we see our T.A.R.D.I.S.  Our amazing box that is the perfect shade of blue...and also happens to have a picture of Clara on it that the doctor seems to miss *ouch my heart*.

This is where the DVR cut off.  But I know most of what happens (thank you Internet) and OMG I am sobbing now.  "Run you clever boy...and be a Doctor" cue a new sonic SCREWDRIVER appearing.  He is The Doctor again!!!  Ahhhhhhhh!  I didn't realize it but the whole season he was hiding!  He was hiding behind his sonic shades!!! He wasn't The Doctor...not without his screwdriver *laughing through tears*. 

And Clara ran away with Ashildr. They are going to go on so many adventures.   Ashildr is immortal, Clara is essentially immortal now...she doesn't have to Face the Raven just yet.  She became The Doctor!!!!!  She stole a flipping T.A.R.D.I.S. and is running away to have adventures.

I am not okay.  NOLAGurl.exe has crashed.  Imbibe with copious amounts of wine and start in safe mode. 

Eeeeeeeee, I can't wait for the Christmas special!!!!!



Want my random ramblings as I watched?  Read Below:

That had nothing to do with Heaven.....that was Hell. If I had to describe Hell...it would be something like that...with Fire

Okay I am saying this now, SPOILERS for Saturday's Doctor Who.  It was called "Heaven Sent" (Series 9, Episode 11).  I know I don't usually review individual episodes (except Season Finales) unless they slap me.  This one slapped me and then asked to be paid because I liked it.  Wait...never mind. 

I am not going to summarize everything but I will give some thoughts. 

1.  That is the coolest...weirdest prison ever. 
2.  That was a lot of blood in the opening scene...whose was it....and why did the person who brought 
     the doctor there turn to dust....?
3.  That thing looked like it was right out of Harry Potter....can you say Dementor

Alright...those were my initial thoughts.  As always Twelve was exceptional.  He was it.  He was the only person there...well him and a CLOCKWORK dementor (seriously why are the most terrifying Who monsters clockwork?!?!?!).  He was amazing.  Just give Capaldi all the awards he is freaking phenomenal.

So all in all, I thought this episode was wondrous.   There was an air of mystery but enough hints that if you were paying attention, you kind of figured it out.  As we all know hindsight is 20/20 but I really did catch onto a few things before the big reveal even if I didn't quite put them together in time.  

For instance when he sees the portrait of Clara... my questions were: why is it so worn?  Is it really old? Wait, how long has it been there? Who drew it?  Did he draw it?  Why does it look ancient?

When he jumped out the damn window into the sea of skulls... Holy $hit that's a lot of skulls.  Wait...whose skulls are those?  They all look similar...  What species has skulls that uniform...humans don't...well not that uniform. 

Mind Storm Room...did Moffat forget he was writing Who and not Sherlock???  OMG Clara is in his storm room.  Even in Death she keeps him grounded. 

Was I the only one that questioned the f**king extra suit drying by the fire?  My initial reaction  "wait...how many times has he done that???" Turns out THAT is the right question!

So the "dementor" for lack of a better word needs "truths" or it kills him.  But why???  What secret(s) are they trying to get out of him and who is they?!?!?

"I am in 12"...that is a CLEAR reference to him being the 12th incarnation of The Doctor...right?!?!?!

That "diamond" wall said "Home"...I rewound it and clearly saw the word Home.  Everyone online said its the T.A.R.D.I.S.  I said "Gallifrey" and I got so many replies saying that was stupid, the T.A.R.D.I.S. is Home, duh.   

When things start to fall into place...Wait how long has he been there???  OMG all the skulls are him!  How many times has this happened?!?!  It's like f**king Groundhog Day!  Two billion years?!?!!?  Hold up, how come the diamond wall doesn't repair like the rest of the castle!??!!?

They keep you so involved in the scare factor, you don't realize who "They" clearly are.  The second he broke through the wall I literally screamed "Gallifrey!" And then squeed like an idiot when they showed the dome.   My brain caught up and....

Then he says this "You can probably still hear me so, just between ourselves, you've got the prophecy wrong. The Hybrid is not half-Dalek. Nothing is half-Dalek. The Daleks would never allow that. The Hybrid destined to conquer Gallifrey and stand in its ruins is Me." F**king Timelords messing with The Doctor...AGAIN!

People were like Holy $hit, he's the Hybrid!!! The movie is cannon!!! He is half human!!! And I'm over here like "Wait...isn't the little crazy girl calling herself Me these days???" So that's my prediction for the Finale.  The "hybrid" isn't the Doctor...its Me...and the Doctor is gonna either help or stop her.  Or it at least has something to do with Me.  He recognized her when she was Ashildr but couldn't place her.  She is significant to all this Gallifrey BS!  I could be totally wrong but that makes sense to...well me.  What do you think???

Below were my real time online musings as things progressed:

- Anyone else not realize the bugs were on the tv at first….I thought I had some unwanted guests
- "Whose been stealing my nightmares…" Yikes!
- He just…he just jumped out a f**king window…
- Awwww, Clara is in his “storm room” 
- So is the question, how many times has he done that….?
- Is he in azkaban…?
- "I am in 12"… What?!?!
- “I didn’t leave Gallifrey because I was bored, I lied”…..“I was scared…I ran because I was scared”

- “I’m not scared of hell…its just heaven for bad people” well you aren't wrong
- Did that just say “home”?  Like as in Gallifrey????
- Eeeeee Clara! Even if it’s just a memory…inner conscience…. what ever
- Dafuq just happened?!?! Did he die...?!!?!
- All the blood is his!?!?!?  The hand....the, the...whoa
- How long has he been there?!?!?!?
- Holy crap!!!! The skulls, they are all him….what?!?!?
- It’s Groundhog Day for the doctor!!!
- Did he just say 20,000 years that time?!?!?!?!??
- 2 billion years…good god
- What in the what what…what?
- I'm not okay...send help...and wine...