“It was beautiful. And it was sad.” Oh, and I am Hell Bent on rewatching that...mainly because my DVR cut off (jerk).

"What is happening?!??!"  My mantra for the entire Season Finale (season/series 9) of Doctor Who.  I'm saying it now...

If you read on it will be SPOILED.

Maybe I missed something in the weeks leading up to the finale but when the opening credits rolled and I saw "Jenna Coleman"  I was like wait... but blew it off as she would be his conscience once again while he dealt with the jerk-ish Time Lords. 

I was so wrong but that isn't the point...who am I kidding yes it is.  The opening scene is him talking to Clara in a f**king diner...THE diner he was in with Amy & Rory in Nevada (is this significant or just the network reusing sets???).  And he is telling her a story about CLARA. Me: OMG what happened to Clara...how is she alive...why doesn't she know the doctor?!!?!? Then he plays a song on his guitar.  Clara: What's it called?  Him:  I think its called Clara.  *ouch my heart* Then we are back on Gallifrey.  I won't lie...I geeked out the entire time Gallifrey was shown.  I mean we got his home planet and their stupid fancy dress...it was AWESOME! 

How cool

is

this!?!?!?

I loved that The Doctor had so much confidence and control while on his home planet.  By all evidence he should have been scared but he wasn't because he knew.  He knew he did right.  And he knew his people were a bunch of dicks.  He drew a line in the sand (literally).  He stood up to a firing squad.  He stood up to Rassilon!  He was so freaking amazing.  So question...was that woman his mum or just a care taker while he was at the academy?  Anyways, I laughed my butt off when he was told to drop any weapons and he dropped the flipping spoon *snort*.

So as usual the Time Lords act like a bunch of pompous @$$hats.  He gets rid of Rassilon and becomes President......I thought...I thought he didn't like being President.  Question: How the f**k did the Sisters of Karn find Gallifrey?!!?!!?  Anyway, so he uses his "knowledge" of the Hybrid as leverage for the Time Lords to bring back Clara.  So we get her back between her last heart beats.  He saved her!  This PISSED ME OFF.  Not because I want her to die (I adore her...she is one of my favorite companions) but because why can't anyone in Who stay dead! It cheapens the deaths when they happen because we all know Moffat doesn't like killing them and they can always come back.  There is no finality.  Moving on, so she's like in limbo...no heartbeat, no me gusta.

The Doctor goes all rogue time lord again and runs away, all to save Clara.  This is a VERY unhealthy relationship!!!  When she finds out how long he was in that disk...I broke a little.  I was the same way...why???  He said: "I had a duty of care", what?!?!?!?  That's about as close as we are going to get to an "I love you".  Not necessarily romantic.  But he does care immensely for his impossible girl.  (I'm not crying, you're crying)  He legit steals ANOTHER T.A.R.D.I.S. and runs away.  I freaked out all over again seeing the old school console room.  Be still my little geeky heart! I just hate that The Doctor is running...AGAIN.  That he is risking the destruction of TIME to have Clara back. Even 10 didn't destroy the universe to get Rose back...COME ON!  Maybe their "love" is stronger.............

Me is there at the end.  No literally at the end of the universe, it's Me and The Doctor and Clara of course.  And WTH was with the "its always four knocks".  That is not funny Mr. Moffat.  That was a HEARTBREAKING moment for the 10th Doctor (and for us!).  Anyways, The Doc (away from Clara) says the Hybrid is Me (Told you So), she says its him (no we are NOT going there.  He is not 1/2 human or whatever.  Just STOP).  Then she says it could be two people (what!?!?!!?!?).  So the Hybrid is the Doctor AND Clara...together.  OMG...OMG!  So to protect time, Gallifrey and Clara...he is going to wipe her memories.  Son of a!  No...we are not pulling a Donna Noble on Clara!!!!  Just.No! 

Clara heard it all and doesn't want to forget.  She is fine with dying but don't take away her memories of The Doctor.  As a fail safe she reverses the polarity to backfire if he tries to use the device on her.  But he doesn't believe her.  They do the whole speaking with their eyes thing with a little talking and decide its a 50/50 chance it'll work on her.  Suddenly the Doctor collapses.  What is happening?!?!?! No...OMG no...OMG!  Why do you hurt me like this!!?!?! The whole episode I thought it was Clara who forgot.  OMG! I did NOT see that coming!  So HE forgot HER...well mostly.  He remembers some things.  He knows she's important to him and he wants to find her.  F**k now I am legit crying.  But he can't find his T.A.R.D.I.S. *awwwww*

But why in the diner? What is Clara doing?  Where is Me???  So Clara walks away into the back...into the 2nd stolen T.A.R.D.I.S. where Me is waiting by the console and the diner disappears from around the Doctor.  He was in the freaking 2nd T.A.R.D.I.S. the whole time in the diner.  OMG (have I voiced my shock yet?)!  And then we see it.  In the aftermath of the other T.A.R.D.I.S. dematerializing we see our T.A.R.D.I.S.  Our amazing box that is the perfect shade of blue...and also happens to have a picture of Clara on it that the doctor seems to miss *ouch my heart*.

This is where the DVR cut off.  But I know most of what happens (thank you Internet) and OMG I am sobbing now.  "Run you clever boy...and be a Doctor" cue a new sonic SCREWDRIVER appearing.  He is The Doctor again!!!  Ahhhhhhhh!  I didn't realize it but the whole season he was hiding!  He was hiding behind his sonic shades!!! He wasn't The Doctor...not without his screwdriver *laughing through tears*. 

And Clara ran away with Ashildr. They are going to go on so many adventures.   Ashildr is immortal, Clara is essentially immortal now...she doesn't have to Face the Raven just yet.  She became The Doctor!!!!!  She stole a flipping T.A.R.D.I.S. and is running away to have adventures.

I am not okay.  NOLAGurl.exe has crashed.  Imbibe with copious amounts of wine and start in safe mode. 

Eeeeeeeee, I can't wait for the Christmas special!!!!!



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I thought I was ready but I wasn't...I don't want to Face the Raven

This is a review/recap of Saturday's Doctor Who episode (Season 9, Episode 10).  It will contain SPOILERS so don't read further if you haven't watched Face the Raven yet.  I'm not kidding.  Don't get mad at mean because you didn't listen.

This season has been a "nail biter" as far as when & how is our lovable little Clara going to leave.  So every episode you are like "OMG is this it?  This is it!" and the Doc swoops in and saves the day, as usual.  This episode was no different.  What we are starting to see this season is someone CLEARLY wants to hurt The Doctor but who and why. 

We have The Doctor and Clara running off to save an old friend, Rigsy.  I don't really remember Rigsy but apparently he was "significant" in a previous episode.  He has, of all things, a new tattoo that is counting down to zero.  He has been memory wiped and is terrified for his family.

The adorable part...the Doctor with the "new human".  He seems to just melt around Rigsy's little girl.  It's kind of adorable in a Twelve kind of way.  So after some T.A.R.D.I.S testing and guessing they figure out that Rigsy stumbled into a "Trap Street" (pardon me...a what?!?).  Doc thinks its a "hidden" street.  Something in plain sight that we can't see because technology is telling our brains its not there.  We have the T.A.R.D.I.S flying over London with Clara dangling out of it like a nut looking for the street.  She is 100% an adrenaline junkie and I think it's starting (continuing) to frighten The Doctor.  She is more jeopardy friendly than ever and she is getting reckless.

So they find the street and we are immediately thrown into a darker version Diagon Alley.  It was quite creepy, especially once you realize everyone you see is camouflaged by a kind of perception filter.  They look human but they aren't.  Somehow Rigsy has committed murder but he doesn't remember why or how.  Ashildr (or Me) shows up as the leader....Mayor...whatever of this ragtag bunch.  She says Rigsy did it and is sentenced to death by Quantum Shade (WTF?!?).

There is some sleuthing and we see another member of this "society" freaking out.  He has stolen from the commune and shall "Face the Raven".  The clock strikes zero as his wife BEGS him to give it to her but he refuses.  The creepy caged Raven turns to smoke and dives into the "man", killing him.  The Raven comes out of his mouth as black smoke and I suddenly had flashbacks to Supernatural (its a Demon, right!??! Oh wait wrong show).  This gives Clara (who is under Ashildr's protection) the STUPID idea of taking the sentence from Rigsy because Ashildr wont kill her (see RECKLESS!) and it will give them more time to find out what really happened.

Stuff happens and then we find out Ashildr tricked them and just needed the Doc to show up so she could turn him over to someone else.  The lady wasn't murdered, Rigsy is innocent, so she goes to remove the tattoo...the problem is, it is on Clara now...Ashildr can't remove it.  Transferring the tattoo cancels the contract and Ashildr is removed as the authority.  Clara will die.

I was in denial.  I kept saying "this isn't it.  no.  this isn't how she dies.  WTF Doctor Who!?!?" Then it happens.  Clara gives the speech...The Doctor tears up...and I am now a sobbing mess on my couch.  “Don’t run. Stay with me.” That line right there broke me into a million pieces.  I might not have loved Clara last season with the Danny Pink BS but I loved her before and after.  She knows him so well and he knows her.  He's angry, she knows he will rip the universe apart to save her or destroy it to avenge her.  He can't lose his impossible girl.  So she helps him along...this is what sealed the deal for me.  This had me crying well after the credits rolled:

Clara: You. Now you listen to me. You're going to be alone now, and you're very bad at that. You're going to be furious and you're going to be sad, but listen to me. Don't let this change you. No, listen. Whatever happens next... wherever she is sending you, I know what you're capable of. You don't need to be a warrior. Promise me. Be a Doctor.
The Doctor: What's the point of being a Doctor if I can't cure you?
Clara: Heal yourself. You have to. You can't let this turn you into a monster. So... I'm not asking you for a promise. I'm giving you an order. You will not insult my memory. There will be no revenge. I will die, and no-one else, here or anywhere, will suffer.
The Doctor: What about me?
Clara: If there was something I could do about that, I would. I guess we're both just going to have to be brave.

(I'm fine I just have something in my eye, like a twig or a tree branch)

Then she runs into the street and the raven slams into her.  She dies.  She f**king dies!  And now the Doc will be transported to who knows where because Ashidr or Me or whatever her name has betrayed him to save her "people".

We flash to Rigsy (I remember him now, he was from Flatline...the graffiti dude) and he has decorated the now abandoned T.A.R.D.I.S. with a memorial to Clara.  And now I am sobbing again. 

Honestly the entire episode was just okay.  I mean it wasn't as bad as last week...murderous sleep boogers...really?!?!?!  But I wasn't overly involved in the story like I have been in the past.  It was an interesting murder mystery but it fell a little flat.  The redeeming feature of it was Clara's death which I hate that that is what "saved" this  episode.  Had she not had such an amazing, and by amazing I mean heart wrenching, send off I would have been almost bored and really annoyed with Me.  Actually I am really annoyed with Me....WTF you old bat!?!? Or maybe I realized this would be it for Clara so I didn't want to like it. 

Source

I'm fine, its fine, I'm fine *sniffle*

Is it just because he looks like a Magician because I didn't see anything "Magical" so to say..?

Okay that sounds like I hated it.  I didn't, I actually enjoyed it but I didn't understand the reference at first.  Well unless its based on that book then I guess I kind of get it (now that I've seen it).  He looks like a magician and he has companions and what not.  Now this is based off of high level observations.  I'll go into more thoughts in the "Spoilers" as I don't want to give too much away.  But I will say I was impressed with the Doctor, I loved Clara (again) which is happy/yay/whoohoo because as I've said before the whole last season Danny story just made me not like her and of course there is Missy who is just so much fun...crazy but fun.  All in all I enjoyed the episode.  I think it was mostly an overview of the entire season to come as a lot was introduced but not much explained.  I don't know why people are hating on Capaldi so much.  I think he's a fantastic Doctor.  Some of his personality as the Time Lord is hard to deal with after 10 & 11 BUT he has that Classic, "I am a Time Lord, I know best, stupid ape (hahahaha)", attitude which is funny, well at least to me.  They were all a bit rude and quite scary at times but he has a harder face.  Almost like a dad who lets you know with a single look to quit your $hit or else you're in BIG trouble (Go to your room - hehehe).   But he as an actor has the ability to show you that the character still cares...you can't hate him...how can you hate him?!?  See below spoilers for my favorite quotes of the night.

**SPOILERS** for The Magician's Apprentice

We open with a War.  Not the time war but something bad with humans...maybe.  A little boy, trapped, needing help when a hero appears in a Blue Box.  Then the little $hit says his name is Davros and I just about lost my mind, as did The Doctor.  So there in lies the decision, leave Davros to die, changing TIME or save him because you are in fact a "Good Man".  We don't know what happens because we are suddenly with Clara and the planes have stopped moving mid-flight.  She was classic Clara, the Clara we meet with 11.  The one who is feisty and smart and a friend to the rogue Time Lord above all else. 

I love that UNIT contacts HER because they can't find the Doctor.  That right there tells you how much they feel he values his companions, right?!?  Our clever girl figures it out.  Figures out HOW to find him.  A TEXT message comes through "singing", Hey "Missy", like from the Season Finale.  I snorted, good stuff.  We get to see Missy again and all her shenanigans.  She is still a cracked out Mary Poppins but her less crazed side is showing.  She is worried about her oldest Frenemy.  He has sent her his last will (WTF?!?!).  Not to Clara but to her. Honestly though, she has the best one liners.  Really she does.  I giggle every time she is on the screen so I hope they keep her around for a bit. 

They get to where the Doctor has been laying low and he rides in on a flipping TANK playing the Doctor Who theme on a freaking Electric Guitar.  Seriously, how can you hate him?!?  Then he spots our leading ladies and starts playing "Pretty Woman"...OMG!  The little exchange with Clara was amazing as well.  She's teasing him about being nice and she says "which one of us is dying, hahaha" and he hugs her...he doesn't do hugs anymore...ahhhhhh. 

So creepy dude made of snakes (I feel like this creature may be evolving in my neighbors yard...with all the snakes, it is a possibility) takes him and his ladies prisoner much to the Doctor's dismay...he doesn't want them captured too!  I couldn't stop laughing at Missy in the holding cell.  She is so annoying to Clara but not in a mean way...its quite fun. 

I did NOT expect the planet to be invisible.  I get that we were trying to show Missy is still bat$hit crazy by opening the airlock.  I wasn't expecting them to be walking on nothing, only to find themselves walking on the surface of Skaro (what...What...WHAT?!?).  But, but Skaro was destroyed...right?!?! So the ladies are captured by Daleks, well $hit, and the T.A.R.D.I.S. is procured by the Daleks, double $hit.  And The Doctor is in a room with a dying Davros, WTF?!?  We watch in "horror" as Missy turns on Clara and is exterminated, which turns to Clara running and she is zapped as well.  Our "fearless" hero is losing it a bit as he watches two of his friends perish.  Now I don't think they are dead.  I think Missy did something with the Vortex Manipulators and they are now in the T.A.R.D.I.S.  But that is just my thoughts.  

Davros admits he has NO control over the Daleks, they do as the please.  We see flashes of a younger Doctor (Four) on Skaro trying to "fix" things.  It was from "Genesis of the Daleks" an episode, I thankfully watched not long before this one aired.  The line that gets you is this one, "Listen, if someone who knew the future pointed out a child to you and told you that that child would grow up totally evil, to be a ruthless dictator who would destroy millions of lives, could you then kill that child?" Flash to this Doctor back on an earlier Skaro pointing a "gun" at the young Davros.  Roll credits.  

Well, I don't believe he will kill him.  He isn't that type even when so destroyed because he's lost everything, he wouldn't do THAT but we shall see next week.  So I am thinking this title is about Davros.  He is the apprentice.  He took "power" as shown by the Doctor and created something awful, something that he admitted he has no control over.  His dying "wish" is to see the Doctor admit that compassion is a failure, his failure.  To take the blame for his companion's deaths and go back to the beginning and finish off young Davros so that the Daleks never exist (maybe, probably not).  Except that can't happen, it would cause a major paradox.  They are too entwined in history and future history to be wiped out of it.  The universe will find a way to fix it and that could be 1000 times worse that what is supposed to happen.  So we shall wait and see who "The Witch's Familiar" is referring to.  

Favorite Quotes/Happenings:
1.  Oh, don’t be disgusting, we’re Timelords, not animals. Try, nanobrain, to rise above the reproductive frenzy of your noisy little food chain, and contemplate friendship. ~ Missy
2. Missy "tickled" a Dalek
3.  Jane Austen – amazing writer, brilliant comic observer, and strictly among ourselves, a phenomenal kisser. ~ Clara
4. (in reference to Missy) It’s the wicked stepmother! Everyone hiss! ~ The Doctor
5. Is that supposed to frighten me? Snake nest in a dress? ~The Doctor 
6.  Doctor: Davros is my arch-enemy. Why would I want to talk to him?
     Missy: No, wait, hang on a minute! DAVROS is your arch-enemy now?
     Doctor: Hush!
     Missy: I’ll scratch his eye out.
7.  Doctor: Why have I ever let you live?
     Davros: Compassion, Doctor. It has always been your greatest indulgence. Let this be my final victory. Let me hear you say it, just once. “Compassion … is … wrong.”