I feel like that was Goodbye........(Sherlock Season 4 Spoilers)

Okay so I am about to talk about Sherlock Season 4, Episode 3.  If you haven't watched any of Season 4 or the final episode DO NOT READ THIS.  I waited two days...just go watch it and come back.

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Anyways, I wasn't overly impressed with Episode 1, "The Six Thatchers".  It was okay.  I mean I love Sherlock Holmes, I have since I was very young.  And I love this version of it.  But S4E1 was meh.  Then they f**king killed off Mary...WHY!  And f**king John and his "affair"...STAHP!  So when she sacrifices herself to save Sherlock I wanted to cry.  Then when John BLAMES his BFF I wanted to punch him in the face.  So the ending was okay but the episode wasn't great.

Episode 2, "The Lying Detective" was better.  Much more slap you in the face crazy.  So the serial killer is disturbing.  That man just oozes creeptastic.   He built a hospital so he can murder people and NOT GET CAUGHT.  What....?  Very H.H. Holmes...murder hotel kinda stuff.  Wait...anyways. Sherlock high as a kite was sad and f**king hilarious.  I didn't want to laugh but he was making me laugh with all of his antics.  Again John was making me mad.  It wasn't Sherlock's fault!  You are projecting your guilt onto him.  You feel guilty for having an "affair" and now your wife is DEAD and your daughter is motherless.  So we get bad@$$ Mrs. Hudson, perpetually annoyed John, and stoned out of his mind Sherlock.  Not to mention WTF is Mycroft hiding?!?!  What is Sherrington....?  Is there another Holmes brother?!!?!?  Mary sends a message from the grave and we see it was all meant to fix the Sherlock/John dynamic.  She knows they need each other *tear*.  Of course John will save Sherlock, regardless of his anger he still cares.  He doesn't want his soulmate to die.  Because that's what they are.  It doesn't have to be seen as romantic.  A soul mate can be a friend.  They are kindred spirits destined to be with one another.  Anyways, talk about cutting it close.  And why does the daughter of the killer not remember Sherlock.  What is happening!?!?!  Then the ending.  Oh...oh SNAP.  His therapist...John's therapist is also the mysterious daughter....and is also the chick he was having a texting affair with......and is also Eurus...who the f**k is Eurus?!?!  OMG they have a sister, not a brother.  I mean basically these were my thoughts.  So it ends with the crazy Holmes sister SHOOTING John...no no no no.

Moving on!  Episode 3, "The Final Problem"...messed with my brain.  It was just a tranquilizer...whew, John is okay.  Clearly the Holmes children are genius'.  They are off the charts intelligent.  But this new addition....Eurus is f**king terrifying.  She is smarter than Mycroft and Sherlock combined.  And she can't handle it.  It has literally driven her to insanity.   Mycroft has her secretly locked away on some island because she killed Sherlock's dog, Redbeard, and set the family home on fire...then set her psych facility on fire (which is how Mycroft faked her death)... b**ch is MESSED UP.  But how did she get out. And why did she blow up 221B Baker Street...with a drone, with Sherlock, Mycroft, and John inside!?!

Anyways, so Sherlock now knows she exists but still has some sort of memory block.  Trauma will do that to a child and being a mostly decent older brother Mycroft just let him be rather than re-traumatizing him.  So somehow Eurus takes over the island of misfit.......people.  She can come and go as she pleases.  I think I screamed a little when she grabbed Sherlock's hand through the "glass".  I also said "how the f**k is he alive?!?!!?  He shot himself in the face...." then the subtitle shows 5 years ago...."Oh".  Wait, so Mycroft gave Eurus a Christmas present...and it was 5 min alone with Jim f**king Moriarty?!?!  He knows how manipulative his sister can be...and he knows how manipulative Moriarty can be...not to mention both of their obsessions with Sherlock...  So then, this insanity has been manipulated by HER since before Reichenbach...what?!?!?  So she has the two brothers and Dr Watson locked up and is forcing them to "play a game".  A game in order to save a little girl who is all alone on a PLANE where all the adults are knocked out.  Impossible choices are being made.  Memories are returning.  Her silly nonsense song she sang to Sherlock as a child.  Not being able to locate Redbeard.  Them playing at a beach.  Its very trippy.  I wanted to cry for Molly, and for Sherlock.  He forces her to say "I love you" to save her but it was all a game.  She was never in danger.  And now he has probably lost his friend.  Seriously I was starting to cry with her.  She loves him...always has...and now she thinks he was playing a game with her *knife to heart*. 

So we end up back at the burned down family home of the Holmes'.  John is chained in a well that is filling with water.  Sherlock has to figure out the clues to save him.  Eurus is still threatening Sherlock with the all alone girl on the plane about to crash.  John finds bones in the well.  Sherlock says "I know, its redbeard" and John says I have to tell you something.  It shows John picking up a small human skull.  Eurus is taunting Sherlock with "you re-wrote your memories".  What is happening?!?!?!  Then Pirate child Sherlock is suddenly playing with ANOTHER CHILD, not a dog.  His BEST FRIEND. Who when they played pirates was always "Redbeard".  Oh...oh...OH MY GOD, she killed another Child.  She was jealous of the friend because she wanted to play too.  So she put him in a well and sang a song to Sherlock as a clue.  But they couldn't figure it out.  Wait, I think my brain shorted out.  So Redbeard wasn't a dog...he was Sherlock's friend and he was murdered by his Sister.....

Adult Sherlock figures it out, finds his sister in her old room.  She is the girl on the plane.  There really isn't a plane about to crash.  She is locked in her own mind.  Its a metaphor.  She is so "high above" everyone else...she is all alone and can't find her way home.  He gets through to her and saves John with seconds to spare.  Mycroft is fine-ish and not in danger.  Then Sherlock calls Greg...Greg and not some random name...how hard did he hit his head.  Its like he finally realizes how much all these people mean to him so he's making an effort.  Uh oh....

Then it all goes back to normal, sort of.  Sherlock and John together again.  Mary sends another message from the grave telling them she knew they would find each other and whatnot.  They fix 221B Baker Street.  Mrs. Hudson is still there.  Mycroft is back to his usual antics.  Mom and Dad Holmes are pissed that Mycroft lied and want to see their not dead daughter.  Eurus has shut down.  But her and Sherlock play the violin together.  Sherlock has a relationship with John and Mary's daughter....his goddaughter.  Everyone seems happy.  And then I screamed "OH MY GOD THEY ARE SAYING GOODBYE TO US!!!!".  This is closure, for us...the viewer.  Everyone is happy (except Molly...I don't remember seeing her).  Noooooooooooooooooooooooooooo........I don't want it to end...*irrationally sobbing*. 


So I think this was it.  Benedict said this may be the last time we see him as Sherlock Holmes.  And that episode felt like a finality.  There was no cliff hanger.  There was no mystery left to be solved.  Sherlock found his family...and his friends...and everyone is...happy... in the end. 

Is anyone watching Incorporated?

So I was really excited about this show when I first saw the previews.  Its a show about a dystopian future where the government collapses and Corporations take over.  It had some familiar faces in it from other SyFy shows and sounded intriguing. 

With that said I am totally hooked.  The first few episodes were a little slow but they have to explain WTF is happening.  After that its almost addictive.  I say this because the subject came up over the holidays and some family were like "it sucks" and "I am so disappointed".  At that point I think 4 Episodes had aired but they had only watched the Pilot and Ep 2.  My thing is you always give new shows a few episodes to ramp up.  I usually say 4 or 5 because in the first couple they are trying to catch you up to what is going on.  Plus how can you connect with characters after 1 or 2 episodes...you don't know them yet.  That's why I hate it when shows are canceled after 1 or 2 episodes, or even 5.  The network didn't even give it a chance. 

Anyways, I binge watched three episodes last night because with the holidays I didn't get to watch them.  They were over in a blink.  I need more!

Seriously though.   There is so much going on in the present but the last two episodes gave us a glimpse into the past.  Why Ben is doing what he is doing and why Laura is so scared to go outside the wall.  Why Julian is the way he is.  The premise of the show is about privileged vs poor but it goes so much deeper than that.  How can you decide who should be saved from the suffering? 

It really is sobering.  You have people living this lavish life.  Its the future we all dream of where wealth is prevalent, technology has advanced, and health is priority.  But then just a mile or so away, on the other side of a wall people can barely survive. They are on rations which are barely enough to sustain them.  They have horrible healthcare (or no healthcare).  They police are corrupt.  There is basically no way out of the slums (refugee camps).  You can't move into the rich people world without becoming a sex slave because you were born on the wrong side of the wall.  Unless you are Ben...then you can con your way in.

Its an awful future.  But Ben gives us hope.  Then you realize its because he wants to save his love from being a corporate call girl.  So it isn't to save humanity, its for his own personal gain but maybe...just maybe some snowball effect may occur.  Something needs to change!  Unfortunately the only thing changing is Ben.  He is on thin ice.  He is making mistakes.  And he is willing to kill to keep his secret (and family) safe.  Its sometimes hard to watch.

Personally, I think its a great show.  I hope it survives because I think it has lots of potential.  SyFy shows are my weakness....

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Ben clearly cares for Laura (his corp wife) but he is obsessed with Elena.  I know she is his love and he wants to save her but at what cost?  Laura isn't a bad corp person.  She was just born into it.  She actually wants to help those on the outside.  She has a good heart.  I bet if he told her it wouldn't be bad.  I kind of want them to make it.  I don't really know much about Elena but I think Laura deserves a chance.  Her mom on the other hand, I am not sure about her.  She has ulterior motives for everything.  Now Julian  scared me the first few episodes but after the last episode, I really like him.  He is just doing his job. He didn't want to be the corp interrogator...the heartless bad guy.  I say good riddance to Caplan...he was awful...that actor seems to always play the bad guy. 

Its a movie about Wars...in the Stars...DO NOT READ THIS IF YOU HAVEN'T SEEN ROGUE ONE

SERIOUSLY DON'T READ ON IF YOU HAVEN'T SEEN IT.  I don't want to ruin the magic for anyone.  Including you!  I even waited 4 days to post this!

I did a thing.  For the first time EVER I went see a movie on opening night.  But not just any movie.  I went to see Rogue One *dance party music* *wookie sounds*.  I know it just came out but Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee I love it so much!  So the original trilogy came out before my time.  Well sort of...two came out before I was born and the 3rd one came out when I was 2...so basically before my time.  BUT my geeky family made sure I saw them...many....MANY times.  I saw the "first three", the "prequels", when I was in college.  I wont talk about them but they are part of the universe so I have seen them a few times each.  Added benefit, Ewan McGregor as Obi-Wan...I mean he is nice to look at AND he is awesome so yea.

Moving on, while I didn't see The Force Awakens on opening night last year, we did go see it within the first week.  I almost legit cried.  I was so happy for a New Chapter and it was so good.  So so so good.  Which is why back in October when my friend said "lets rent out a movie tavern theater to see Rogue One" I was like, "Oh f**k yea, I am SOOOOOOOO there!".  If you haven't realized I am purposefully putting filler intro stuff just in case people don't heed my warning!

Alright, here we go...SPOILERS below.

Mabelline Super Stay 24 Lipstick

I've used the Keep up the Flame & Constant Toast quite a few times. It goes on evenly and dries quickly. I love that the color is bright but not overly bright. Its perfect for daytime or nighttime wear. I will say it stays sticky for longer than I'd like but once it dries, its dry. My only other issue is once its dry my lips feel dry, like they may crack (they don't). I feel like I have to apply the balm frequently. But it stays on. I can put it on at 8AM and it stays on until I shower at night. It fades a little but not much. And this is after eating and drinking all day. I would recommend this to all my people who hate reapplying throughout the day.

I got this free to try from Influenster to give an honest review.  

Ghosts from Our Past: Both Literally and Figuratively: The Study of the Paranormal - Erin Gilbert, Abby L. Yates, Andrew Shaffer

THREE STARS 
 
I don't know.  It was interesting enough but wasn't as "funny" as everyone keeps saying.  I'm a Ghostbusters Geek.  I've seen the originals countless times, I watched the Cartoon back in the day, and I've seen and enjoyed the reboot.  Look, I like awkward humor but most of the "funny" stuff fell flat.  At least to me.  With that said it was interesting enough.  I did enjoy the Ghost Stories, the how tos, and how to nots.  I did enjoy some of the silliness but it wasn't laugh out loud funny.  It was just meh.  Maybe my expectations were just too high.

Erin and Abby are social outcasts who befriend each other because of their mutual fascination with the paranormal.  Its not just about the ghost hunting though, its about the science.  Its about trying to prove the existence of another realm where the dearly departed and some other "creatures" reside.  In their spare time in college they wrote this book about the paranormal.  Since their success (what we see in the movie) they have added and edited their old book.  They tell us how they started, the history of ghost hunting, and how to be a ghost hunter/paranormal investigator. 

Like I said it wasn't an awful book but I was expecting more LOLs.  I am a history nut so I did appreciate the information about paranormal investigators of the past.  It did have its moments of fun but I wasn't cracking up, more like forcefully blowing air out of my nose while smiling. 

If you liked the movie give it a go.  It isn't boring by any means. 
 

I received this book for free from Blogging for Books to read and give my honest review. 

Influenster Revive Vox Box

Got it all free to try from Influenster to give my honest review.

Kauai Coffee, Garden Isle, Medium Roast 

I tried this coffee for the first time today. It wasn't bad but something about it wasn't what I like. The flavor was rich and the smell was invigorating. The initial taste is slightly strong but its good. I just found it had an odd aftertaste. Everything has an aftertaste but this one lingered and made me feel like my "coffee breath" was 1000 times worse than normal "coffee breath". So it was good and if I had more I'd drink it but I don't think I'll buy more on my own. But I do really like that the pod is compostable. It makes me not feel as bad buying k-cups.

Chock Full o' Nuts, Midtown Manhattan, Medium Roast 

I am not complaining. I was concerned about trying this one because it says "chock full o'nuts" But there really wasn't a nut flavor. It was more like a regular cup of joe. i will say it was a smooth cup of joe. It wasn't bitter at all but still had a strong flavor. I would definitely try it again. 

Hills Bros, Medium Roast

Not bad but not great. I guess I am used to my coffee with chicory so most other coffees don't really compare. I will say it wasn't bad but it wasn't strong enough for my liking. I probably wouldn't purchase it in the future. 

Vanilla Plnt by Plant Protein Powder

Okay, I can usually stomach anything that isn't Cinnamon.   I could NOT drink this one.  I tried.  I really did but something in this actually made me gag.  I tried multiple times to swallow it and I gagged each time.  I dumped the rest down the drain.  So yea I have no idea if this is filling but it made me *blah* so it would work great as a weight loss option....

Cookies and Cream Next Step Fit N' Full Shake Powder 

Surprisngly my favorite.  I actually enjoyed it.  I didn't think I would like it because I am not big on Cookies and Cream but I really liked it.  It also kept me full and didn't leave an awful after taste in my mouth.  I may actually give this one another try. 

Strawberries and Cream Whey Tech Pro 24 Powder

This made me remember I am actually not a fan of meal replacement drinks.  There is something in them that triggers my involuntary gag reflex.  But I managed to drink this whole thing with only a couple gags.  And its not that it tastes bad, quite contrary.  This actually tastes very good for being a Protein Smoothie.  I will say it is smooth, especially if you use the tumbler to shake it up.  It tastes like you are drinking melted strawberry ice cream.  That isn't a bad thing.  Just one of the ingredients doesn't agree with my taste buds.  I drank this for breakfast and was pleasantly surprised by how full I felt.  I was still full after cutting my front & back yards and cleaning the kitchen.  4 hours later I finally got a bit peckish and had a late lunch.  So this was a great meal replacement.  Had I not done all that exercise I may have stayed full much longer.  I think I will try this again in the future. 

SheaMoisture Fruit Fusion Coconut Water Weightless Shampoo & Crème Rinse

Why is this so expensive?!?!  I loved how it made my hair look.  It was soft and shiny but not weighted down.  And it smelled divine.  I would love to continue using this but my checkbook said no.  Maybe with some coupons and a sale.  Regardless, I would definitely recommend trying this. 

SnackWell's Biscuit Thins, French Vanilla Latte 

These were delicious!  So crunchy and full of flavor.  It was like eating a Vanilla Latte.  That sounds weird but it really was good.  They were even better when dipped into a cup of coffee.  Yum!

Dark Matter by Blake Crouch

I think my brain just 'sploded.  This book was phenomenal.  My only complaint is the version I had seemed to be riddled with typos, like it was unedited.  But regardless it was amazing so I am not reducing the stars just for that.  Its sci-fi with a really good message.  I only picked it up because of the title and I love the TV show of the same name.  I am so glad I did!  It kept me guessing until the very end.  I thought I had it figured out but I so did not. 

We are following the life of Jason Dessen.  Nothing special normal family man who teaches physics at a university.   He's married to Daniella, has a son named Charlie, and has regrets...who doesn't.  But regardless he loves his family even if he takes them for granted.  It all comes crashing down one evening when he leaves to celebrate an achievement for an old school mate.  When he left little did he know how long it would take him to make it back home to his mundane life and what obstacles he would have to endure to get there. 

This story was captivating.  You can't help but love Jason through all of his good and bad decisions.  He is us, we are him.  I mean I am not an insanely intelligent physicist who regrets not doing more in his field. What I mean is he has a wonderful life but always wonders what if.  What if I turned left instead of right.  What if I didn't go to that party.  What if I made a different choice.  Where would my life have gone?  Where would I be?  You can't tell me you never had those thoughts, you are human we all have them.  The problem is IF we didn't make those choices we wouldn't have what we have.  Would it be worth it?  Could you give up your family for success?  You may say yes now but what IF it really happened.




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This book BROKE MY BRAIN.  I thought I had it figured out and then *wam* another twist.  I loved it!  Jason is amazingly flawed.  He has a wonderful, normal life but always thinks about what if he didn't have a baby with Dani.  He gets his wish.  He is kidnapped and thrown into a parallel world.  A world where he didn't marry Dani, didn't have Charlie, where he didn't stop his research.  A world where he is a recognized physicist but he is all alone.  It takes him a while to figure out his kidnapper was him (what?!?!).  The him from this world stole his life...very Fringe like.  The parallel him created a box that can cross the plain between parallel universes.  He can visit his "what ifs" and see how things would be different.  All he wants though is to go back home.  To go be with his wife and son...the ones he took for granted. 

He makes friends and enemies along the way...more enemies than friends.  He can't figure out how to get back to HIS world.  He sees horrors along the way.  Worlds ravaged by illness or natural disasters.  Worlds where Dani dies, where Charlie dies, where he dies, where they didn't marry, where they never met.  So many worlds.  How can he possibly find his in an infinite number of realities.  Meanwhile Jason2 is playing house with his family.  I know its "him" but it isn't him and it really CREEPS ME OUT! 

When he finally made it home I was so happy and scared.  How was he going to fix this?  Can he really kill a version of him and re-replace him?  I kept thinking it was going to be like bizzaro land.  Where Dani comes home to both Jasons and has to figure out which one is her husband.  But they kill the wrong one.  That is where my brain went.  I was NOT expecting hundreds of versions of Jason showing up.  How the...I understand some theoretical physics...like the very basics of the multiverse stuff but this blew my mind.  Basically once he entered the box INFINITE versions of him were created.  Each reality he stepped into or didn't step into created ANOTHER Jason that just wanted to get home to Dani and Charlie.  

Taking care of ONE version of himself was enough but hundreds, how does one even begin to solve that.  I am so glad Dani and Charlie realized the correct version but how do they stop the others.  I was on the edge of my seat.  He can't kill them all.  They can't just keep running.  They are all basically him, they think like him, they will find them.   So imagine my surprise when Jason2 is dying and gives them the gift of the ampules.  That option never occurred to me.  The option for them to escape, together, to another universe.  But how do they stop the gazillion versions of him from following.  They stop it by HIM not making the choice.  By giving the choice to the one variable that could end the insanity.  Let Charlie choose.  They walked out into a strange new world.  One with hope and hopefully happiness because they are together and that is all that matters.  I LOVED it!  

SIDE NOTE - Please make this into a movie or at the very least a TV Show...and cast David Tennant as Jason.  I don't know why but he feels like a good fit for the character.....

I received this book for free from Blogging for Books to read and give my honest review.  

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