Yo WTF Man?!?

 The writers of shows today know just how to f**king GUT you!

I am f**king UGLY sobbing on my couch.  Like UUUUUGGGGLLLLYYYYY!

I can count on one hand how many times a show made me UGLY cry.  

Lucifer Season 5 Ep:15.  

I'll just post my reactions to what happened.  

They f**king killed Dan!!!!

I was tearing up when the Dr came out shaking her head "I'm so sorry".

No no no no noooooooooo!

Then Trixie came in.  That little girl GUTTED ME!  "I want my daddy"  After that the water works started. I had to literally pause the show because I was hiccup crying.  It was a sad sad moment for me haha.

Then I was good.  Then the funeral happened and Amenadiel was crying and Lucifer was crying.  Dammit!!!

Yo who's cutting onions up in here?!?

Okay I love love love Lucifer.  Which makes me sound like a psycho unless you know of and watch the show.  I mean it's a wildly popular show so if you've never heard of it...get out more.  

Anyways, the show rarely makes me cry.  It makes me happy, sad, annoyed but never really cry.  Yea well the last episode I watch made me straight up Sob.  I'm blaming it on hormones, haha. 

Nothing Lasts Forever.  While Lucifer is still vying for his dad's job Chloe is trying to work.  And of course trying to figure out what to do if he becomes God, coming to terms that she loves him and will support him.  God I love her!  

Anyways it was funny and insightful and just a good time as usual until the end.  Lucifer FINALLY listens to what someone else wants and does something amazing for dear old dad.  He gets Mom to come back for a visit.  The second she walks in I teared up.  Mom!!!!  The acting was so good...I could feel the emotion of the moment.  They talk and decide they should be together but they are going live in her Universe.  

Wait wait wait...God is LEAVING?!?!  Mom tells Amenadiel what an amazing father he is and she is so proud of him.  Okay tearing up a little more.  

Then Lucifer tells dad he can't leave.  He's not losing his mind so he can stay and be God.  But then God tells Luci, he needs to tell him something.  He loves him and he's always been proud of him.  Lucifer is crying, God is crying, Amenadiel is crying...Mom is crying.  And I am a blob of emotion on my couch. 

God just told his rebellious son who was cast from the heavens that he loves him...and is proud.  Why am I sobbing?!?!?!

Look I know I am biased because I adore Tom Ellis but he was so good in that scene.  He is so good in EVERY scene but that scene.  THAT SCENE, it was soooooo touching! And Dennis Haysbert, I mean he is amazing in everything he does.  Including playing the most adorable snarky God only second to Morgan Freeman. Notice I didn't mention Chuck, because he pissed me off towards the end of Supernatural haha. 

Moving on...Then they leave.  God LEAVES Lucifer and Amenadiel saying they will figure it out.  

I need to watch the last two pieces of this season but I couldn't bring myself to do it after sobbing...plus its after 10PM and I have work in the AM hahaha. 

Ahhhhhh sobbing again!

Oh, we can be heroes just for one day.....I need a tissue and a hug!

Okay I know I am late to the OMG Stranger Things is like the best show ever but I have no time people!

Anyways once Season 3 dropped, I decided Eff it, who needs sleep.  So I binged as much as I could between work, life, general BS...and finally finished it. 

In the last few weeks I have become irrationally attached to these freaking characters!!!  Mike and El make me all weepy with puppy love.  Hopper and Joyce kill me with sexual tension!!!  Steve is f**king awesome! I just...I love them all...its such a great show! 

It's the perfect blend of supernatural horror and plot. Not to mention the nostalgia!  I was a kid in the 80's...not a teen but I was aware of enough and remember all of it.  I was like Lucas' little sister Erica...maybe a little younger. 

Turn around
Look at what you see
In her face
The mirror of your dreams

It makes more sense once you watch it!

SPOILERS...DO NOT READ IF YOU HAVEN'T WATCHED THE END OF SEASON 3!!!!!





So I knew something BIG would happen.  I was sad when Dr. Alexi died.  I liked him.  He just wanted a better life.  But I KNEW a big character was going away.  So as the last episode ramped up so did my anxiety.  Then....THEN Joyce agreed to a date with Hopper and I knew he was going to effing DIE! 

I didn't want it to happen but as she gazed at him in the reactor area about to turn the keys I started tearing up.  Then Billy f**king sacrifices himself for El and WTF...I hated him but he was just a damaged kid...he doesn't deserve this!  When he says "I'm sorry" to Max before dying tears started to fall.  Then Joyce sees Will and is sobbing so now I am started to really lose my battle with my tears.  But when....when she sees Eleven and El realizes Hopper is gone its gone.... I am full on crying!!!!!!!!

I managed to compose myself.  I'm watching them pack up Will, Joyce, and Jonathan and it's sad...they are leaving Hawkins.  Its sadder when we realize El is leaving with them!  I mean it makes sense but NOOOOOO!  Anyways the tears return during that whole scene.  Nancy is parting with Jonathan....Will is parting with his BEST FRIENDS....Joyce is parting with everything she's ever known...and El is leaving Mike and the gang but Mike...and SHE LOVES HIM TOO!

But what killed me.  Like honestly ripped my f**king heart out...the letter. El is reading Hopper's "speech" he was going to have with El and Mike about boundaries and the flood gates opened.  F**k I am starting to tear up again just typing this! 

I lost it.  He called himself her dad.  He made sure she knew she SAVED him from his demons.  He said he loved her in so many ways.  And OMG...

So yea this show gutted me...THANKS A LOT GUYS.  Whatever, there is clearly a Season 4. Russia has a F**KING Demogorgon and when they went to get a prisoner to feed to it, they said "no not the American".  So the only thing keeping me from sobbing further is that in my head that is Hopper.  He got sucked into the Upside Down and spit out in Russia.  Right...RIGHT!?!?!?! 

I'm going to bed.  I am emotionally drained 😓

PS Showing them saying goodbye with "Heroes" playing in the background was so mean!!!!!!