Its supposed to be a comedy dammit!

Okay I have not been super faithful to Young Sheldon but I have enjoyed like 85% of the series.  I watched last weeks episode live....

I KNEW George died at some point because in Big Bang Theory he is already dead.  And I knew it had to be coming soon because, well its ending THIS WEEK. 

I just didn't think it would f**k me up so bad when it happened.  

I mean Jesus!  They are getting ready to go take a family photo before Sheldon leaves for Cali.  They are cutting up and being the goof @$$ family that they are when there is a knock at the door.  

George had a massive heart attack, he's gone.  That's it.  He went to work and he's gone.  No drawn out goodbye, just no longer here. 

I think it hit me so hard because THAT is real.  Life is like that.  It's not a sitcom. It's not like a TV show.  You leave for work one day and just don't come home.  The only thing "sitcomy" was they happen to be all together going take a family photo but that could be real too.  

Everyone's faces and sobs.  Sheldon in shock in the corner.  I legit went from cracking up to silently crying into my wine.  

Now I'm kinda dreading the f**king finale.  I don't want to cry!!!! I see elder Sheldon is making an appearance.  I feel like he's going to close it out which is fitting.  I mean he created this.  He made the anomaly that is Sheldon Cooper and opened the door for this spin off and the one about Georgie and his family. I just don't want to be sad at the end of a finale for a comedy but I will be sad its ending.  It's a funny show!

I can't post this on Goodreads o_O

I haven't loved a series this much in a while.  Like I LOVED ACOTR but this series has stolen all coherent thoughts!!!

***SPOILERS***

This freaking series!  I didn't think I could love Violet and Xaden anymore but OMG.  This is literally just my random thoughts.  Its for me.  Please dont read haha

Highlights so I remember:

- This is hilarious... surprise bitches we LIVED

- "Pahahhaha ““Garrick Tavis. Xaden Riorson.” Captain Fitzgibbons’s voice carries over the formation as he reads from the death roll. “Well, this is awkward,” Xaden calls out.”"

- OMG her brother is ALIVE right right sorry just remembered

- Gods I love them so much but she is still so mad at him

- They are going to send him to timbucktwo just to fuck with them....

- Their dragons have to be together dammit!

- Adarna is still sleeping.  

- Its going to be ok they are going to make this work

- Sloan HATES her

- Why is she such a f**king target, ugh!

- Oh dang!  The kinds son hahhahahahahahahahaha

- I'm worried about her sis and the lies like there aren't really bad things coming

- Yall stealing the secret book journal is probably horrible idea

- Vi is captured and tortured but that Jerk with a one eyed dragon.

- He is trying his best to keep them apart

- H'e not a BAD GUY, he can't be....I dont care I still love him and his shadows

- Vi needs to freaking trust him already

- I know she is mad but he is bearing himself to her

- He messed up but come on

- Andarna is so freaking cute but what is her secret??? 

- I want a dragon!

- Gods their Chemistry hurts so good

-OMG they literally stole half the freaking riders and dragons to fight the Wyvern & Bloodshot eye peeps...I am blanking

- Dain is a little redeemed...a LITTLE

- YAAAAAS the riders are joining them... still don't trust the cray cray B after she set Vi agains at freaking Venin

- God Cat is a asshat

- Her jealousy of Cat is stupid...he wants you GIRL

- Cat is a twat

- OMG they are friends now

- Sloan has to get over it at some point

- They brought back Jack!?!?!?  WTAF. This cannot be good

- I feel like the new wards aren't right

- Nope they aren't quite right

- Wait wait... should she have two powers since she has two dragons

- Oh snap he has two powers bc his grandfather rode the same dragon o_O

- Oh crap crap what is it...oh this can't be good...oh nos!!!

- Shit is going down fast fast

- Oh he can read intent...interesting

- So their mom does care... I wasn't sure

- This is too easy...something doesn't seem right

- OMG the venin are going to attack the school!!!!!!!!

- Wait how how how how how

- FUCKING JACK....Dammit!!!! He's venin!

- Yes kill him!! Fine keep him for questioning... UGH!

- What's the secrect... what did she miss before... AHHHHHHH

- its 7... 7 what....

- OMG Its Andarna...she's the key right?1!?!?!

- Noooo you cannot kill anymore of her people... whew

- It IS Andarna... Why am I picturing like toothless... the rare whatever

- She cannot sacrifice herself to get the wards up!!!

- He's dying?!?!!? Staaaaahp

- Oh snap snap snap Mom really does care... Ok I am crying... she sacrificed herself....to save her children

- Oh no... something is wrong.  This seems bad.  "He lives" doesn't sound great...

- Sygeal... be gentle.  Oh shot if the dragon is saying be gentle... wtf?!!?!?

- Ok ok he killed Mr big Venin.  OK... 

- Oh Fuck fuck fuck!!! 

- I did not see that coming!  With 1000% certainty did not see him becoming VENIN!!! Ahhhhhhhh

- Oh it did the thing.....its him POV.  

- "I always told you you would change for love" UGH!.  He became Venin to protect Vi and if he just waited 1 more minute she had it.  But they had each other blocked.... ARGH!

- I could never fear you Xaden!!!

- Hahahhaaha "What's the cure Jack!" They will cure him.  He will NOT be evil!!!!

 

Pretty sure that was Shrek fan fiction

Okay I say that in Jest because this book totally hooked me.  I really did enjoy it but there were times where I was like this is odd. 

*****SPOILERS****

Lark is an outcast.  She is an outcast because she has this ability to turn on your fear.  Basically she infuses you with fear until you piss your pants and run. 

People are scared of her so she moves on from town to town once she's been outed.  Unfortunately she was used and abused by her evil father.  And people are awful to her.  Its an awful world.  It barely rains and the earth seems to be dying.

She runs to the last refuge.  A Troll City where humans may or may not be welcome.  Before they can kill her she shows the council her "curse" and they allow her to stay as a 2nd hand citizen (they hate humans) as long as she behaves and earns her keep. 

She's paired up to work with Unach a large, pretty (?) Trollis who is a badass and really wants nothing to do with Lark.  But they council orders her to "keep" her until she gets quarters.  She hunts monsters with Unach who is all around annoyed she has to deal with her. 

Unach's brother Azmar lives with her but seems different.  He's not as harsh as the other Trollis.  He is almost kind and seems very smart.  

Other humans live in Cagemar but are more live slaves but not... they have their own area but are not respected.  She gets in good with a few but a jealous asshole has her ebeaten to within an inch of her life before a half human half troll found her and helped.  

Azmar seems to take this the hardest (what is happening) but Trolls hate humans...right?  

Anyways alot happens...they build a friendship.  She gets beaten again by another very EVIL Trollis and Azmar seems to distance himself. But Unach "claims" her which means...no one can touch her.  I dunno its weird.  

She saves the city...twice.  And then there is a moment where there seems to be chemistry bw Azmar and Lark... WHAT?!?!?!  lithe blonde human and a... I am picturing "smart hulk" from the avengers.  He's like 3 times her size ... but he rejects her...she's embarrassed and ends up in her own apartment. 

They eventually hook up.  Its a HUGE no no.  Like HUGE!  They keep it a secret but obvi that's not possible.  He basically proposes and gives her his "rock".  She tries to escape to meet up with another band of peeps, gets caught...with a knife.  Its a mess.  Trollis is going to be attacked and no one believes her. 

She goes undercover at her fathers camp.  He plans on whiping out cagemar.  She gets the info to prove her loyalty to Cagemar and goes back but they end up going to wa anyway with Azmar on the front lines as his punishment for loving a human.  He's going to die she uses fear to scare him back to safety and is recaptured by the trollis. 

Everyone is hating him, he almost died. Unach hates lark now bc she found the rock thingy.  He hate lark bc he's scared of her so she is going to leave.

But he shows up, professes his love, and said he never belonged in Cagemar.  They runaway to the mountain and it rains.

**scene**

It was a weird book...like I've never read a Troll book. But like I really got invested in this damn book.  Like really invested.  Like couldn't wait to make sure Lark & Azmar had their happily ever after.  WTAF.  

Yo WTF Man?!?

 The writers of shows today know just how to f**king GUT you!

I am f**king UGLY sobbing on my couch.  Like UUUUUGGGGLLLLYYYYY!

I can count on one hand how many times a show made me UGLY cry.  

Lucifer Season 5 Ep:15.  

I'll just post my reactions to what happened.  

They f**king killed Dan!!!!

I was tearing up when the Dr came out shaking her head "I'm so sorry".

No no no no noooooooooo!

Then Trixie came in.  That little girl GUTTED ME!  "I want my daddy"  After that the water works started. I had to literally pause the show because I was hiccup crying.  It was a sad sad moment for me haha.

Then I was good.  Then the funeral happened and Amenadiel was crying and Lucifer was crying.  Dammit!!!

Yo who's cutting onions up in here?!?

Okay I love love love Lucifer.  Which makes me sound like a psycho unless you know of and watch the show.  I mean it's a wildly popular show so if you've never heard of it...get out more.  

Anyways, the show rarely makes me cry.  It makes me happy, sad, annoyed but never really cry.  Yea well the last episode I watch made me straight up Sob.  I'm blaming it on hormones, haha. 

Nothing Lasts Forever.  While Lucifer is still vying for his dad's job Chloe is trying to work.  And of course trying to figure out what to do if he becomes God, coming to terms that she loves him and will support him.  God I love her!  

Anyways it was funny and insightful and just a good time as usual until the end.  Lucifer FINALLY listens to what someone else wants and does something amazing for dear old dad.  He gets Mom to come back for a visit.  The second she walks in I teared up.  Mom!!!!  The acting was so good...I could feel the emotion of the moment.  They talk and decide they should be together but they are going live in her Universe.  

Wait wait wait...God is LEAVING?!?!  Mom tells Amenadiel what an amazing father he is and she is so proud of him.  Okay tearing up a little more.  

Then Lucifer tells dad he can't leave.  He's not losing his mind so he can stay and be God.  But then God tells Luci, he needs to tell him something.  He loves him and he's always been proud of him.  Lucifer is crying, God is crying, Amenadiel is crying...Mom is crying.  And I am a blob of emotion on my couch. 

God just told his rebellious son who was cast from the heavens that he loves him...and is proud.  Why am I sobbing?!?!?!

Look I know I am biased because I adore Tom Ellis but he was so good in that scene.  He is so good in EVERY scene but that scene.  THAT SCENE, it was soooooo touching! And Dennis Haysbert, I mean he is amazing in everything he does.  Including playing the most adorable snarky God only second to Morgan Freeman. Notice I didn't mention Chuck, because he pissed me off towards the end of Supernatural haha. 

Moving on...Then they leave.  God LEAVES Lucifer and Amenadiel saying they will figure it out.  

I need to watch the last two pieces of this season but I couldn't bring myself to do it after sobbing...plus its after 10PM and I have work in the AM hahaha. 

Ahhhhhh sobbing again!

I think I was murdered by a show

I watched the final episode of SPN after my last post.  It's not that I didn't have anything to say.  I just couldn't form complete sentences.

I SOBBED!

I think I literally cried for an hour.  

SPOILERS FOR THE SERIES FINALE

THEY KILLED DEAN

DEAN F**KING DIED

In like the 1st 5 min. He is hanging on that freaking nail thing crying and Sam is crying and I am crying.  And he asked for permission to go.  He asked Sam to tell him it was okay to die and I legit just sobbed.  

Sammy held him as he died and I just can't y'all.  I can't.  I am crying again and it's been f**king two weeks!

Sam lived his life.  HIS NORMAL LIFE that was taken from him in Episode 1.  

He has a Kid named DEAN!

Dean is in Heaven...well new heaven now that Jack and CASTIEL (yay!!!) revamp it. 

Dean has baby with him in heaven and goes for a drive.  A drive that lasts the REST OF SAM'S LIFE!

Sam has a family...he grows old.  He's still wearing Dean's watch.  His son is with him on his deathbed AND TELLS HIM ITS OKAY TO GO and now I am sobbing again.  Just f**king kill me man.

So Sammy goes to heaven and Dean is chilling on a bridge and doesn't even turn around...he just says "Hey Sammy" and I am AGAIN just bawling! 

And just like that 15 seasons are over.  15 years of a show I have loved for ALL 15 years is done.  Through the cheesy, sad, silly, serious...through it all, I have stuck by it and now it is done. 

Honestly, I don't think they could have ended it any other way.  It's a PERFECT ending for the Winchesters.  Dean was always going to die a meaningless death, in a meaningless place, with a meaningless baddie.  But this time he is with Sam and he is ready.  He is ready to be done with this crazy family business.  He is ready for peace. Sam gets his happily ever after.  Granted almost everyone he has ever cared about is dead.  But he manages to live the happy life.  Live the life he was meant to have.  Live the life Dean wanted him to have.  

And in the end the boys are back together in eternity with Baby.  As it should be.  

Then Jensen and Jared are on the bridge, no longer in character.  And they and the WHOLE cast thank the fans.  Because without the fans this crazy show wouldn't have been what it was and there I am just crying because even though I knew this because I follow them on social media, I really really knew they loved the show and the fandom just as much as we did.  

I have loved many a shows and I still love many a shows but something about this one really gets me.  I just have this weird connection to it.  Possibly because it was silly and serious.  But it never took itself too seriously.  It made fun of itself but it was always always about family! Not necessarily the one you are born into but the one you choose. 

He said he loved him!!!!!!!

 I know I am a little behind but I just watched one of my favorite characters die and it f**king hurt!

Life has been dumb so I am about 3 episodes behind on the final Supernatural episodes.  And holy moly what...why?!?!  I knew someone I LOVED was going to die but Cas.  Why Cas?!?!  And the way it happened.  He told Dean just how amazing he is.  That he isn't the mindless hunter no one he thinks he is.  That he became a better person/angel because of Dean.  That he learned to LOVE because of Dean.  

He told Dean HE LOVED HIM.  And then in that moment of pure happiness the Empty takes him and Billy (Death) leaving Dean alone and confused in the bunker.  

I knew Castiel was saying goodbye.  I knew there was not going to be a happy ending here.  I did not think I would literally just sob with tears pouring down my face.  

I've been watching this show from day one.  There have been many times I was sad or cried a bit.  It was usually once I saw Dean &/or Sam just broken and sad.  But this one hurt.  Dean wasn't sobbing.  He was sad but more conflicted.  What was happening?!?!  His BEST FRIEND was sacrificing himself to save him...again.  Except this time he wasn't coming back.  

Misha nailed it.  My heart soared and broke at the same time.  Then he touched Dean's shoulder and left the bloody handprint and that's it lost it again.  

I f**king love this show but GAH I need to stop crying dammit!