Tuesday, July 6, 2021

Yo WTF Man?!?

 The writers of shows today know just how to f**king GUT you!

I am f**king UGLY sobbing on my couch.  Like UUUUUGGGGLLLLYYYYY!

I can count on one hand how many times a show made me UGLY cry.  

Lucifer Season 5 Ep:15.  

I'll just post my reactions to what happened.  































They f**king killed Dan!!!!

I was tearing up when the Dr came out shaking her head "I'm so sorry".

No no no no noooooooooo!

Then Trixie came in.  That little girl GUTTED ME"I want my daddy"  After that the water works started. I had to literally pause the show because I was hiccup crying.  It was a sad sad moment for me haha.

Then I was good.  Then the funeral happened and Amenadiel was crying and Lucifer was crying.  Dammit!!!

Thursday, July 1, 2021

Yo who's cutting onions up in here?!?

Okay I love love love Lucifer.  Which makes me sound like a psycho unless you know of and watch the show.  I mean it's a wildly popular show so if you've never heard of it...get out more.  

Anyways, the show rarely makes me cry.  It makes me happy, sad, annoyed but never really cry.  Yea well the last episode I watch made me straight up Sob.  I'm blaming it on hormones, haha. 

Nothing Lasts Forever.  While Lucifer is still vying for his dad's job Chloe is trying to work.  And of course trying to figure out what to do if he becomes God, coming to terms that she loves him and will support him.  God I love her!  

Anyways it was funny and insightful and just a good time as usual until the end.  Lucifer FINALLY listens to what someone else wants and does something amazing for dear old dad.  He gets Mom to come back for a visit.  The second she walks in I teared up.  Mom!!!!  The acting was so good...I could feel the emotion of the moment.  They talk and decide they should be together but they are going live in her Universe.  

Wait wait wait...God is LEAVING?!?!  Mom tells Amenadiel what an amazing father he is and she is so proud of him.  Okay tearing up a little more.  

Then Lucifer tells dad he can't leave.  He's not losing his mind so he can stay and be God.  But then God tells Luci, he needs to tell him something.  He loves him and he's always been proud of him.  Lucifer is crying, God is crying, Amenadiel is crying...Mom is crying.  And I am a blob of emotion on my couch. 

God just told his rebellious son who was cast from the heavens that he loves him...and is proud.  Why am I sobbing?!?!?!

Look I know I am biased because I adore Tom Ellis but he was so good in that scene.  He is so good in EVERY scene but that scene.  THAT SCENE, it was soooooo touching! And Dennis Haysbert, I mean he is amazing in everything he does.  Including playing the most adorable snarky God only second to Morgan Freeman. Notice I didn't mention Chuck, because he pissed me off towards the end of Supernatural haha. 

Moving on...Then they leave.  God LEAVES Lucifer and Amenadiel saying they will figure it out.  

I need to watch the last two pieces of this season but I couldn't bring myself to do it after sobbing...plus its after 10PM and I have work in the AM hahaha

Ahhhhhh sobbing again!


Sunday, December 6, 2020

I think I was murdered by a show

I watched the final episode of SPN after my last post.  It's not that I didn't have anything to say.  I just couldn't form complete sentences.

I SOBBED!

I think I literally cried for an hour.  


SPOILERS FOR THE SERIES FINALE


THEY KILLED DEAN

DEAN F**KING DIED

In like the 1st 5 min. He is hanging on that freaking nail thing crying and Sam is crying and I am crying.  And he asked for permission to go.  He asked Sam to tell him it was okay to die and I legit just sobbed.  

Sammy held him as he died and I just can't y'all.  I can't.  I am crying again and it's been f**king two weeks!

Sam lived his life.  HIS NORMAL LIFE that was taken from him in Episode 1.  

He has a Kid named DEAN!

Dean is in Heaven...well new heaven now that Jack and CASTIEL (yay!!!) revamp it. 

Dean has baby with him in heaven and goes for a drive.  A drive that lasts the REST OF SAM'S LIFE!

Sam has a family...he grows old.  He's still wearing Dean's watch.  His son is with him on his deathbed AND TELLS HIM ITS OKAY TO GO and now I am sobbing again.  Just f**king kill me man.

So Sammy goes to heaven and Dean is chilling on a bridge and doesn't even turn around...he just says "Hey Sammy" and I am AGAIN just bawling! 

And just like that 15 seasons are over.  15 years of a show I have loved for ALL 15 years is done.  Through the cheesy, sad, silly, serious...through it all, I have stuck by it and now it is done. 

Honestly, I don't think they could have ended it any other way.  It's a PERFECT ending for the Winchesters.  Dean was always going to die a meaningless death, in a meaningless place, with a meaningless baddie.  But this time he is with Sam and he is ready.  He is ready to be done with this crazy family business.  He is ready for peace. Sam gets his happily ever after.  Granted almost everyone he has ever cared about is dead.  But he manages to live the happy life.  Live the life he was meant to have.  Live the life Dean wanted him to have.  

And in the end the boys are back together in eternity with Baby.  As it should be.  

Then Jensen and Jared are on the bridge, no longer in character.  And they and the WHOLE cast thank the fans.  Because without the fans this crazy show wouldn't have been what it was and there I am just crying because even though I knew this because I follow them on social media, I really really knew they loved the show and the fandom just as much as we did.  

I have loved many a shows and I still love many a shows but something about this one really gets me.  I just have this weird connection to it.  Possibly because it was silly and serious.  But it never took itself too seriously.  It made fun of itself but it was always always about family! Not necessarily the one you are born into but the one you choose. 

Monday, November 23, 2020

He said he loved him!!!!!!!

 I know I am a little behind but I just watched one of my favorite characters die and it f**king hurt!

Life has been dumb so I am about 3 episodes behind on the final Supernatural episodes.  And holy moly what...why?!?!  I knew someone I LOVED was going to die but Cas.  Why Cas?!?!  And the way it happened.  He told Dean just how amazing he is.  That he isn't the mindless hunter no one he thinks he is.  That he became a better person/angel because of Dean.  That he learned to LOVE because of Dean.  

He told Dean HE LOVED HIM.  And then in that moment of pure happiness the Empty takes him and Billy (Death) leaving Dean alone and confused in the bunker.  

I knew Castiel was saying goodbye.  I knew there was not going to be a happy ending here.  I did not think I would literally just sob with tears pouring down my face.  

I've been watching this show from day one.  There have been many times I was sad or cried a bit.  It was usually once I saw Dean &/or Sam just broken and sad.  But this one hurt.  Dean wasn't sobbing.  He was sad but more conflicted.  What was happening?!?!  His BEST FRIEND was sacrificing himself to save him...again.  Except this time he wasn't coming back.  

Misha nailed it.  My heart soared and broke at the same time.  Then he touched Dean's shoulder and left the bloody handprint and that's it lost it again.  

I f**king love this show but GAH I need to stop crying dammit!

Sunday, November 24, 2019

Journey to Territory U, L.J. Epps

Its like a soft 3 stars...

I really want to like Book 3 of The Extinction of All Children series, and it does wrap up many of the questions readers have about what is happening. The pace and dialogue strays, but the basic story line is okay. I just couldn't get as into it but I wanted to know what on Earth was going on. Many of the questions about Emma and Esther come to a head in this book but the reveal falls flat. Emma made some smart decisions and some dumb ones but she is young...it's expected. I thought overall, she was a character I could rally behind.

Some of the twists were expected or so dragged out that when they finally do come out its not shocking. Emma continues to be challenged again and again. Will she be able to unite the territories? Read book three to find out.

I received a free copy in exchange for a fair review.

Sunday, August 25, 2019

Oh, we can be heroes just for one day.....I need a tissue and a hug!

Okay I know I am late to the OMG Stranger Things is like the best show ever but I have no time people!

Anyways once Season 3 dropped, I decided Eff it, who needs sleep.  So I binged as much as I could between work, life, general BS...and finally finished it. 


In the last few weeks I have become irrationally attached to these freaking characters!!!  Mike and El make me all weepy with puppy love.  Hopper and Joyce kill me with sexual tension!!!  Steve is f**king awesome! I just...I love them all...its such a great show! 

It's the perfect blend of supernatural horror and plot. Not to mention the nostalgia!  I was a kid in the 80's...not a teen but I was aware of enough and remember all of it.  I was like Lucas' little sister Erica...maybe a little younger. 

Turn around
Look at what you see
In her face

The mirror of your dreams

It makes more sense once you watch it!

SPOILERS...DO NOT READ IF YOU HAVEN'T WATCHED THE END OF SEASON 3!!!!!





So I knew something BIG would happen.  I was sad when Dr. Alexi died.  I liked him.  He just wanted a better life.  But I KNEW a big character was going away.  So as the last episode ramped up so did my anxiety.  Then....THEN Joyce agreed to a date with Hopper and I knew he was going to effing DIE

I didn't want it to happen but as she gazed at him in the reactor area about to turn the keys I started tearing up.  Then Billy f**king sacrifices himself for El and WTF...I hated him but he was just a damaged kid...he doesn't deserve this!  When he says "I'm sorry" to Max before dying tears started to fall.  Then Joyce sees Will and is sobbing so now I am started to really lose my battle with my tears.  But when....when she sees Eleven and El realizes Hopper is gone its gone.... I am full on crying!!!!!!!!

I managed to compose myself.  I'm watching them pack up Will, Joyce, and Jonathan and it's sad...they are leaving Hawkins.  Its sadder when we realize El is leaving with them!  I mean it makes sense but NOOOOOO!  Anyways the tears return during that whole scene.  Nancy is parting with Jonathan....Will is parting with his BEST FRIENDS....Joyce is parting with everything she's ever known...and El is leaving Mike and the gang but Mike...and SHE LOVES HIM TOO!


But what killed me.  Like honestly ripped my f**king heart out...the letter. El is reading Hopper's "speech" he was going to have with El and Mike about boundaries and the flood gates opened.  F**k I am starting to tear up again just typing this! 

I lost it.  He called himself her dad.  He made sure she knew she SAVED him from his demons.  He said he loved her in so many ways.  And OMG...

So yea this show gutted me...THANKS A LOT GUYS.  Whatever, there is clearly a Season 4. Russia has a F**KING Demogorgon and when they went to get a prisoner to feed to it, they said "no not the American".  So the only thing keeping me from sobbing further is that in my head that is Hopper.  He got sucked into the Upside Down and spit out in Russia.  Right...RIGHT!?!?!?! 

I'm going to bed.  I am emotionally drained 😓

PS Showing them saying goodbye with "Heroes" playing in the background was so mean!!!!!! 

Thursday, July 18, 2019

Journey to Territory M (Extinction of All Children #2) by L.J. Epps

Its more like 3.5 stars but I still enjoyed it enough to push to 4. The story is still following Emma and her rag tag group trying to force equality throughout the territories. This installment was more real. Emma is still infuriatingly stubborn but she seems to be starting to think about things before acting. 

There is more mystery, more death, more action in this book. If you liked book one you will like book two plus some. It's entertaining, it's exciting, it makes you want to keep reading. The relationships between the characters are developing well. I still don't like the "love triangle" LJ is implying but I get it. It creates drama and jealousy. 

I liked it enough to keep trucking on to book three. I need to know what is going on. Why is craigluy separated from the rest of the nation? Why is it three territories? What happened??? Why is the president such a jerk?!?! Who thinks "yes lets kill babies"?!?!

Thats my take. I think if you've made it this far you HAVE to read book three. Plus it is entertaining. 

I got this book for free from Netgalley to read and give my honest review.